My 30s future

"Your going to love my nuts." Vince from slap chop


I still laugh everytime when that part in the infomercial plays. Immature maybe. But thats how I role. I recently went to a Pampered Chef party with my Mom to look at investing some money into cool kitchen gadgets and all the ingenious tools that these women dont know how they lived without!! Comments like," it changed my life!" and "I would die without it" seemed to be flying around the room every time a new product was introduced and its magical powers explained. Now, yes the products are good and I did buy the oven stone because its practical and everyone swears by it. But at this party there was a moment where I realized this was my life in 15 years?

Scary and hey maybe I will love every second of it once I am there. But looking at these ladies talking about the school systems and how appalled they were that they couldnt just walk freely through their kids elementary school. It kinda made me laugh. This is what you talk about when you are 30? It was like the episode of Sex in the City where Carrie and the girls go to this baby shower and Carrie has the epiphony of if she wants to be a mother or not. Its scary to think I could be there soon, considering time lately has been moving like 5 days at a time. But I dont know if that ever will be me. I like to cook.. yes. But I dont think my life will be changed by something you buy in a catalogue. I also dont want to become the over protective mother who rallys against the principal because they will no longer let me be the celebrity mom and sit in the back of the classroom to watch the teachers every move.



I still dont know who I am or who I want to be. Ive given up on holding on to my teenage past but still questioning what makes me happy... I guess it wont be pampered chef!